LEVEL Best Man 2020
The Defiance of Black Joy in an Especially Anti-Black Year
Sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying
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I’ve been thinking a lot about joy lately.
Maybe it’s the Thanksgiving trip I recently canceled. Maybe it’s the constant despair we’ve experienced throughout 2020 — the feeling that we’ve spent a year of our lives suspended between moments of tragedy. Either way, I can’t help but wonder where joy has manifested in our lives, and why, when it finally does, it feels so weighed down and muddy. I’ve been thinking about why joy feels like more than joy and less than joy at the same time. I’ve been thinking about who joy is for and who it’s against. I haven’t felt joyful in my thoughts.
First, let me back up.
There’s a Twitter account called @NoContextDrUmar that happens to be the dumbest thing on the internet. It takes clips of hotep Insta-vangelist Dr. Umar Johnson and posts them, as the name suggests, out of context. They’re all as ridiculous as Dr. Umar himself; I can’t get enough of them. They bring me joy. When I watch the videos, I’m not thinking about oppression or resistance or fighting back…
